Contemplative
I’ve been unemployed since January 6th. I’m one of those creative people which generally is a good thing, but it does have it’s downside. I always have something to do. I have no less than ten projects going at one time; whether it be painting, working on transferring or formatting my pictures, looking for a job, writing articles or posts and of course the every day things like cleaning. Cleaning by the way is as written, my last priority. Essentially being unemployed and always having something to do presents a problem. I enjoy being unemployed which obviously is something that my mortgage, electric and phone companies won’t accept to kindly.
The other unfortunate thing about having so much on my plate is that I find myself extremely contemplative. It difficult at times to decide what to do first. Of course, the job search should be a priority yet I find that I do that halfheartedly. I need a job to help pay the bills. I feel extremely guilty that Mike is the sole provider and that he is working as hard as he is to make ends meet. It’s that guilt that keeps me looking for a job, yet when I find a potential position I apply without enthusiasm.
The other downside to working is that it will hinder the sale of this house that we desperately want to sell. I need to fix things up and maintain it and be available to show it. And, why get a job if we’re leaving?
I am a believer. I know somewhere online I will find my niche and draw the income that we need to survive. As I continue my search, I contemplate!
6 Responses to “Contemplative”
By David on Feb 23, 2010 | Reply
bohzo (hello)
I am a total stranger to you, but i like your honesty in your words.
I would not worry about finding a job if your heart is not in it, especially right now when many of the jobs available are just plain terrible.
With so many people out of work, the long lines and folks with masters degrees trying to fight over getting shopping cart jobs, the market is terrible. Well that’s my 2 cents, although it may really only be worth 1/2 a cent.
Have a great day!
David
By Diane on Feb 23, 2010 | Reply
I’d give you a whole nickel for that comment. You justified my not looking for a job
Actually, I’ve decided to split my day between packing and blogging. The house is up for sale so it wouldn’t be fair to my employer if I started a job and left. Justified again! 
As far as my honesty, I’m not always sure if it’s a help or a hindrance, but it’s me.
Thanks for your comment. Enjoy!
By Bodewadmi on Mar 9, 2010 | Reply
bohzo Diane and family
I am as poor as a church mouse, I own a $400 million dollar a year casino and my cut from this works out to $97.56 a month. I guess that I can’t quit my day job.
Well Maria Shriver just signed up to follow me on twitter and I got dumped after two days by the Kardashian’s girls, o well I never liked them anyway.
Most of the folks from my tribe are beyond poor, the average income this year is 12,500 a year. That’s average. If I could only learn to sell my twitter followers I am sure that I would make more than $97.56 a month. I actually had to close the doors to my twitter site by request. So now you are trapped with Maria. She interesting you should read her tweets, she wants women to have equal rights as men, can you imagine in 2010 such a thing?
Have a great day!
Bodewadmi